But God I Can't!

This whole tour has been a testimony in itself.  This tour I was asked to become a coordinator, which is the primary leader on the team.  God actually started dealing with me on this topic on my last team back at the beginning of March.  I knew I was going to be a coordinator then, but I did just about everything I could not to become one, even complaining to God saying "God I can't do this."  All tour long I was afraid of messing up, and scared that my team wouldn't like me as their leader and try to "rebel" against me.  I didn't start taking full responsibility of what God placed before me until almost the end of the tour.  It wasn't until I started reading some C.S. Lewis books called the "Chronicles of Narnia" that I started realizing that God knew what He was doing and that I could do what He placed before me.  Not only did God trust in me, but so did the staff of the New Life Drama Company.  In "Prince Caspian" Aslan tells all the Kings and Queens of Narnia to rise, and then Prince Caspian realizes he's talking to him too.  Caspian responds with saying "But I don't think I'm ready for this" and Aslan says to him "and for that very reason I know you are."  At that point in the movie I knew God was speaking to me and the worries and troubles I had about leading a team.

This whole tour we've been followed by signs and wonders.  We've seen healings, restorations, and salvations.  We were in Willimantic, CT working with some inner city kids that followed us everywhere we went.  At first they mocked and laughed at us, trying to keep up their appearances, but soon enough they come to like, and even admire, us. There were about 15 kids in the group and throughout the week we were there almost all of them came to know Christ.  They went from kids who wanted nothing to do with us and laughing at us, to kids who respected us and helped us by holding doors for us and carrying chairs for us.  It was incredible to see such a vast change in such a short time.

This tour God put a desire in our hearts, and that was to have us five young adults go into the North Eastern area of the country and preach the Gospel of Christ through sketch drama.  When you think of this it sounds a little stupid to think five young people could change an entire region of a country for Christ.  Lucky for me, I'm not the smartest person in the world.  I have family members who hear what I'm doing and ask what I plan on doing with my life and when I'm going to be done with this and start my life.  They don't understand because what we're supposed to do is get saved, get prosperous, and get comfortable.  Not to live a radical life for God and trust Him.  If we don't have control of our lives or if what God has planned for us can't be comprehended by our small minds then we don't think it's of God.  When we hear on God prospering us we always think He's speaking of money, but what if there’s more?  Jesus says "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head." (Luke 9:58)  Why would Jesus tell us to take up our cross and follow Him?  He also tells the rich young ruler to sell all he has and give it to the poor and follow Him.  Maybe God isn't speaking of money when He says "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you," (Jeremiah 29:11) maybe he’s speaking of a full life in Christ.

We are planning a mission trip next winter and are still praying about a few different places to go and minister.  I would love to go on any of the countries being contemplated, and any support you could provide me with would be helpful.  I appreciate all your prayers. 

May God bless you in all that you do,

Mark Farrow